Fear

This morning I did battle with one of my old adversaries (fear). It is amazing to me that some people keep coming back no matter how many times you whip them. This guy just doesn't quit, I would like to think of myself in this same way. That I to am a person that would stay the course no matter what, that does not give up either. Anyway this guy annoys me, sneaking into my thoughts when I am not paying attention and before I realize it I have chased him down a road I did not want to be on. When I come to and realize that once again I have been bush whacked it is time to reflect how I got on to that road and every time I come back to a lose that I encountered years ago. I believe that God has healed me of this lose but my enemy tries to resurrect it sometimes to use as a weapon against me. I once again turn out to be the man I thought I was by turning back from the road I was led down, now if I could only stop chasing this guy when he pops up I would never end up on the road to begin with. We all have room to grow.

2 Timothy 1:7 (NLT)
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

Driving Miss Christina

We have had some snow and ice where we live and it has shut down our corner of the state for a couple days. So I have been driving my wife around for a few days now as I am better at driving on the snow and ice. It has been different though because even though we work at the same building and start at the same time we drive separately because we run different directions all day. But during the cold spell we rode together and it was fun, sometimes. :) At other times it was like WHAT we have to run there AGAIN. I love my wife and she is very cute and so driving her around was good times but it was different times. Today we drove separate again and now it seems different to not be riding together. But I get to see her all day as we work at the same building. :)

Mistaken Circumstances

I am constantly finding myself in situations where I think I know what is going on but in the end I did not. I am amazed at how a circumstance can look one way from one side and totally another from the other side. I had some people move there stuff into the mini storage I manage and not tell me about it. I just drove by and saw locks that were not supposed to be there. So I call the police and we cut off the lock thinking I would find a meth lab or pot growing or something like that. We found household furniture and that was it. I was very put out by this who would dare sneak stuff into someones elses building and try to store there stuff for free, that was stealing. So I locked the stuff up put a note on the door and got a call a few days later. Come to find out these people had stored stuff in the wrong building they had been talking to the owner of the other mini storage in town and when they went to put there stuff in they put it into my building by mistake. There are more points to the story but that is the simple version. What I saw as a huge injustice and a criminal offense was at its simplest form a mistake and miscommunication. I am glad I did not take there stuff out and throw it into a ditch or something that would have been bad. Thank God for the little voice that tells you to calm down and take it easy. I also thank God for the other voices around me who help support His voice.

Constant Calling

I am Cherokee so I am able to use the Indian hospitals and their dental program. But to use the dental program you must first get an appointment this is not an easy task. You get one day a month and one hour on that day. From 8:00am to 9:00am to have the chance to get an appointment for the next month. I spent 45 minuted this morning calling about twice a minute, thank God for the redial button, and got through twice with no one answering the call. Finally one the third time I got through the secretary told me there were no more appointments, try back next month. :( I am so glad we have a Heavenly Father that answers at the first call, we don't have to stand in line to see Him or try back in a month but He is always there right when we are ready for him. How upsetting it must be for Him to stand at the door of our hearts knocking and get the message "we're full right now try back next month".

Pastoral Staff retreat last weekend

I had a blast we hung out as a group of friends and there was no big long meeting because we had already gotten them out of the way, instead we went to have fun. The men paint balled while the women massaged. Good times. I am sore but the five men who were there all had fun paint balling and we agreed we should go again soon. We stayed Friday night with a great couple who have a beautiful home with a pool table and a shuffle board table in their basement, so of course Friday night was a blast as well. We all came home tired but refreshed.

My to do list grows

I have a to do list as does every man who ownes a home and vehicles and breathes air. Mine which includes replacing the rusted out tub, the rusted out sink, the leaky faucet, tearing up and fixing the soft spots in the living room floor, and other stuff now includes fixing broken vehicles as well. Not major repairs but minor ones that need to be done. Leaky power steering hoses or pumps, new tires, engine idle problems, and the latest is a rusted out exhaust that has fallen off finally. All these need repair and all will cost some money, I can do some and the mechanic will have to do some each when the money presents itself. It is easy to look at my list and think it is impossible to get this done because as I check one off another one appears, but I remember that I can do all things through Christ and that it all does not need to be done today. It is important not to procrastinate, as that is why my list is so big, but it is also important not to be overwhelmed by your list keep plugging away at it and with Gods help you will look up one day and be done and remember the journey is part of the destination.

My letter

I finally got around to writing a letter to a friend of mine who is going through a tough time. I learned alot from my letter, as I wrote to him about times in my life where I had struggled and God had seen me through. I wrote of some of my most challenging and troubling times, of some of my biggest mistakes in life and the cost they could have taken on my life without God's Grace covering them and seeing me through. It is amazing that by the end of that letter even though I was writing it to encourage him I was the one who was encouraged. Reliving the tough times of my life as I wrote them down reminded me that God was there to see me through and His love had covered a multitude of my sins. I hope this letter helps my friend as much as it helped me writing it.

Upcoming Makeover

I am excited about this winter not because of the weather but it is hopefully going to give me the time to redo some stuff on my ugly old golf cart. I hope to, with my fathers help, add a utility bed to the back of the golf cart not large but enough to work with. Then I want to add a toll box below the utility bed to hold some of the tools I will be carrying around with me. After that we will be pulling out the front axle because it needs some straightening done where a previous break was not repaired correctly, and finally a homemade front bumper possibly with a small winch setup on it, but we will see. After all the modifications are done I am going to paint the hole thing camouflage with the intention of using it out in the woods during next hunting season. It will also be a everyday work vehicle that saves gas since it runs on electric. Yes men you can drool, its OK.